YOUTH OF DISTRACTION, AGING OF DEATH

We find much “purpose in life” in youth and middle age, in family and career. It is the “normal distraction of life,” it could be said. Such distraction = purpose and meaning. A very apt carrot hung before us that is truly motivating. And we tend to live our lives accordingly and engaged.

          When family and career fade and we are then left with ourselves in old age, we lose the “inherent distraction of youth and middle age,” and, left with ourselves and perhaps a spouse as well or even still with children, our bodies begin to reveal themselves as a painful limitation to our activities, even to ourselves “as we are,” or so is our interpretation. We begin to “bide our time,” to become more aware of our lives “slipping away slowly” (or perhaps even quickly). We find ourselves waiting to be out of these pained bodies that we still inhabit.

          “Life” in itself does begin to become invasive and demanding as the culture and society changes, dumbs down, loses itself even more in falseness, becoming even more violent and cruel and downright stupid, electing a representative president and government who takes pride in lying, falseness, violence, cruelty, and stupidity. The world goes merrily to “hell in a handbasket.” It becomes ominous and hateful; one begins to feel this weight upon oneself. The Kali Yuga brings us down on “all fours”; we find ourselves barking and biting.

          But then, it is the weight of the crumbling, the deterioration of the body, of the mind too—of the life one has defined for oneself and lived, be it partially or fully, according to one’s retrospective. Such is normal; it is preparation for actually looking forward to leaving the body. Some religions celebrate such a parting. My own perspective is at least an appreciation for the unfolding of my life, even in its strange and often painful ways. But the pain of life leads us beyond itself into something much more real, much deeper, so far within that it is beyond; it may be called the “underlying life” not just within the outer life, but which is the matrix of all life itself. It is not a belief system or doctrinal though it finds its way into those institutional contexts. I, with the suggestion of John Gardner, the author, may call myself an “opportunistic fatalist,” or what could be a “positivistic nilhilist.” The notion of “life’s unfolding” I see as “fate,” and I am a student of fate, a follower of “what is,” of what reveals itself in each moment, including my particular hopefully evolving, contextually expanding, response to it. It’s not so much that I see life as a “good thing,” rather, it is the “happening thing.” It is thus not to be denied, simply because it IS. One must participate, so why not make the best of it? And one makes the best of it by knowing what it is. And “what it is” is not what it means or how I feel about it, though those may be by-products of knowing what it is. And, of course, one cannot know what life is unless one knows what one is in this context of living. So, “knowing fate” is based in knowing oneself in the context of one’s life, which is the only context in which one can be known, for it is the only backdrop, the only comparison available that we have. We can only see ourselves in the context of our existence. That said, “our existence” is of a multi-leveled nature; we “exist” physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually (or, taken as one, psychologically). This is my particular perspective. I also see that there is some kind of “matrix” or “living structure” in and through which we exist, such “structure” permeating all existence, all life, in some way. This “matrix of being,” as it were, has myriad names, mostly religious. This would define me, not as an atheist, I suppose, but as a deist. But the deity is not inherent self-conscious and could be Nature, or the permeability of life, or even perhaps the “storm god” or “mountain god” of the ancient Hebrews. Do I “worship” such a “god”? No. Rather, I am aware of such a “matrix” upon which all like “hangs” and depends, like all children upon their mother, though I also see this matrix as fundamentally and completely existent within each person or thing, which is a central notion of pantheism, though my running joke is that I’m a “pantyist.”

NEGATION OF THE NEGATION: UNIFIED OPPOSITION

Sometimes I find myself in a state of “utter compassion” in which I am overwhelmed with a “beingness of complete love” of all things, and find myself moved by all of it. But before this occurs, I became aware that it is not “knowing” but rather “being” that matters. Being is the end-all, not knowing. To be is reality; “knowing” only seems to be an attempt to explain that, as if it even matters. Of course, it’s very “interesting”—all distractions are most interesting.

          Giegerich, in The Soul’s Logical Life (Lang, 1998), speaks of the “negation of the negation” which is to say, the “living dialectical relationship” of that which we see as opposite, but which is in a living relationship of tension within itself, perhaps like Jung’s transcendent function, perhaps like Hegel’s opposition of thesis and antithesis moving to synthesis, perhaps like my own metaphor of the electric light in which the positive and negative poles interact when electricity is introduced by producing an arc of light, of illumination, a living dialectical relationship borne of the tension of polarity, of time and space, of dual location. When faced with pain (often pain-of-recognition), one chooses to accept it to the point of experiencing it and becoming it, which is not the same as even “becoming one with it.” If one becomes pain, pain-as-an-external affect ceases. This may be similar or even the same as “letting go of oneself” so that “I” am not at the effect of anything. These notions can become more than just philosophical concepts; one can experience so completely that one is identified with that which is experienced; “it” becomes what one is and is expressed through oneself. The wording makes it seems like ideas are being combined with experience, and “experience” itself becomes confusing because we have different levels of experience, including physical, emotional, mental, psychic, spiritual, and these in themselves overlap and become vague and simply conceptual rather than experiential; any interpretation is thus further removed from any reality of what is really happening. The point is that there is no escaping ourselves or what is happening. In that non-escape, we face the negation with our own negation, our own psyche, which is our own not-self. And so the seeming opposition of our nature and being is thus expressed as a unity even of non-united elements.

          Giegerich refers to “the idea of merely freeing the … opposites from their insulation [and isolation as ‘opposites’ in our mind] and bringing them into living dialectical relation with each other, into a situation where the pulsating … movement from one to the other and back is no longer artificially prevented. … this movement does not occur as a succession in time (now this, now the other). It occurs as the internal logic of one and the same (truly psychological) other.” ... One “no longer divides something or someone else into two (the person into ego vs. self, consciousness into an old vs. a new status), and his dividing is no longer an activity that he executes upon someone (or something) else” (34). “The soul is not ‘empirical,” it is not a ‘transcendent mystery,’ it is the dialectical logical life playing between the soul’s opposites” (38).

          Soul as used here is psyche. Paradoxically (I suppose), as it reveals itself, it further hides itself in such revelation, for its nature is a negation; it is definitely not what it appears to be, not as one thinks it to be, or as it seems to be: it continually and perpetually opens upon itself. The soul is not conceptual but experiential, but not sensorially experiential. It is the process of self-becoming; the process of being. Consider, for example, Jung’s process [as described by Kerenyi] of being “reached and touched, indeed ‘gripped’ by the Notion of the soul. And because he had been touched and gripped by it, he had a grasp, … a Notion, of it and he could grasp it. Both oppositional aspects … belong together. (41)” A specific example of this is Jung’s words regarding Freud as “ ‘… a man in the grip of his daimon’ … because the idea of sexuality ‘had taken possession of him’; for Freud, sexuality was undoubtedly a numinosum.’ The ‘emotionality with which he spoke about it revealed the deeper elements reverberating within him’” (35). Thus, Freud’s seeming “psychological discourse” is not that, but rather a revelation of psyche, soul, or daimon, however, as it is reflected upon and interpreted, such “psychological reality” fades into psychological presentation and case study. But even so, Freud’s “work as a whole with its fixation on sexuality allows one to sose that there must have been a mystery, one that has been systematically excluded and obliterated” (35).

           Having personally experienced the state of negation, the apophatic, the via negativa, the dark night of the soul, studied and researched the topic, and written a thesis, The Rebirth of the Christian Apophatic Spirit; Embracing the Dark Night of the Soul (The Institute of Transpersonal Psychology, March 1996) on it, I feel that I do possess a vital sense of the “Notion of the soul,” though it is best expressed not in words but in no words, which is challenging when presented in the medium of the written word.

GHOSTS AND OTHER THINGS

When I was young, in my 20s, I was so sure of myself, so certain in my thinking. I think it came from all the support I got from this theosophical group, Arcana Workshops, to which I belonged for ten to fifteen years and with whom I meditated daily and then studied the writings of AAB and wrote a lot for my mentor there. I actually came to believe that I was the World Avatar! Now that’s confidence. It’s also delusional but then I never shouted it from any rooftops or even whispered it to anyone, including my wife. It was my secret and I was just biding my time until the right moment to reveal myself to the world—which never came.

          My participation began in 1971 after I was assigned to two years’ civilian alternative service as a conscientious objector at Greer, A Children’s Community, near Millbrook, New York. I had never meditated in a disciplined way before, though I had been exposed to some Rosicrucian (AMORC) meditation techniques, and also teachings pertaining to the various “levels of being.” I had learned, for instance, that it was the astral level, or emotional level, on which ghosts or earth-bound spirits existed, and that to free oneself from haunting by ghosts, one had to raise one’s level of consciousness, of being, above the astral, to the mental.

          At Greer I began to experience a whole horde of grabbing, mischievous, dark, frightening “ghosts” who would literally grab at my clothes, face, hands, and try to force me to slow down my pace and stop when I would walk out of my cottage at night. But worse, they appeared to the children to whom I was houseparent, at night when they were in bed, and literally pinch their toes. The children would wake up screaming and terrified several times a week. My first response to this situation was to instruct the kids to say to the ghosts, if they could gather their wits to do so, “In the name of Jesus Christ, I order you to leave this place and to move on.” I even splashed “holy water” from a Catholic Church in the rooms, and burned sage, though more for the kids’ sense of safety than my belief it would work. The hauntings actually increased, probably since they now had our full attention. At that point, I noticed a small ad, I think in the back of Atlantic magazine, that said: “Meditation with a meditating group. Raise yourself above the astral level.” I was amazed that it actually noted “raising consciousness above the astral.” I became involved very quickly, was practicing the mental-spiritual meditation, and was noticing that when I did go out and walk at night, the ghosts no longer bothered me, even though I could still sense their presence. I was “raising my vibrations” through this meditation. Then I got my boys together, ten of them, ages four through ten, and I taught them how to do this meditation, which, in turn, gave them the confidence to confront the ghosts and tell them to go away “in Jesus’ name.” Each night we meditated together for a few minutes before bedtime. The children were “on board” with the whole process, since they, having firsthand experience with the ghosts, definitely did not like them.

          Not long afterward, I had one more intense experience with the ghosts. My wife, Nikki, was very susceptible to the ghosts. She could literally see them; they would fully materialize in front of her. I didn’t see them, but would feel them, emotionally and physically. However, on this one night we were in our apartment in our cottage and suddenly Nikki froze, her eyes staring at something, her mouth open. I looked where she was staring and saw a woman standing there in an ankle-length black dress and high-buttoned black shoes, but only as far up at her knees. Nikki could see the whole person. Then, in that same moment, the whole room, which had lights on in it, suddenly became darkened, as if filled with odorless smoke. And the temperature in the room fell below freezing so that I could “see my breath” condensing in the cold air. There was then another dark figure in the room and a frightening sound of the wings of a large bird, like a crow. We were so terrified in this darkness, these figures, and this sound of wings—so overcome by a feeling of overwhelming evil. The room was pitch black and freezing. As strange as it may be, we both jumped into bed and piled covers upon ourselves, holding each other tightly, waiting for the very worst to happen. Then they were gone just as quickly as they came; the room was lit and it was warm. The ghosts never appeared again in such a personal way, though a couple of times after that, in broad daylight, I saw perhaps twenty ghosts standing at the edge of the meadow at a distance in front of the great trees of the bordering forest. They seemed to just stand there unthreatening and still, gazing at me. I felt a sorrow and silently told them to move on.

          There is a historical explanation for the presence of the ghosts. In my research, which consisted of talking with a few “old-timers” around the town of Millbrook and a farmer near Greer, plus my own study of the history of the place itself, I discovered that it had been an Episcopalian orphanage, built in the mid-1800s, consisting of two large Georgian structures, which now housed the administration and the school. What had happened was that, in the 1890s, the place was swept by some kind of plague, probably either smallpox or cholera, that killed almost every adult and child who was there. And the adults, in their black Episcopalian, Victorian garb, for whatever reason, remained. But it wasn’t just that, in my estimation. It seemed to me that there was also a particular presence of evil that permeated the atmosphere even on the sunniest, most beautiful days, like the day I saw the figures lined up along the edge of the meadow. I had thought that perhaps they were just shadows of the trees behind them in the late afternoon, but they were not; the sunlight was directed towards the forest—there could not have been shadows where the figures were.

          Some of the houseparents there, who had been there for many years, should not have been there, in my estimation. I knew one or two that physically abused the children or were able to bribe the other children under their care to beat certain “disobedient” children. And there may have been a pedophile, though I couldn’t be sure about it. On the other hand, there were other conscientious objectors like myself, who were young and caring and tuned-in to the children, and were excellent houseparents. One old woman had survived the fire-bombing of Dresden in WWII and told me horrendous stories about that. Another, Galen, a conscientious objector, was a cowboy from Montana, who played a guitar and sang cowboy songs to the teenage “tough” boys from Harlem, who loved his music and respected him greatly. My little kids liked me too because, though white, I was a bearded, long-haired hippie, and rather disliked by the administrators and campus policeman, who once called me a “recalcitrant, Marxist hippie” in front of the kids. Though I doubt whether they knew what “recalcitrant” and “Marxist” meant, they certainly didn’t like and were afraid of the campus cop, and must’ve felt I was somehow “on their side” after that.

          My dismay at the behavior of some of the houseparents towards their wards caused me to contact the AFL-CIO in the naïve hope that to unionize the houseparents might provided some good “child-training” courses to show the houseparents how to actually help children with love and concern rather than to promote fear and racism. When I met the local union rep, it was like meeting a Mafioso chieftain, literally buffered by bodyguards with guns. I started secretly organizing, meeting with houseparents on campus to persuade them to join the union. The campus policeman and his crew, who cruised the Greer campus with guns in the pick-ups, may have been informed by a houseparent. I had discovered, though another houseparent whose girlfriend worked as the personal secretary of the man who ran the whole operation at Greer, that this administrator had embezzled funds to send his family to Europe and actually pay his children’s tuitions at Ivy League colleges. What finally happened was that my co-organizer, a conscientious objector, Lee, was killed in an accident; the brake lines of his truck had been cut. I was closely watched by men in pick-ups on the campus after that—and was followed by them at a distance when I left the campus on errands. The union didn’t come about.

MY CLAIM TO FAME

I had been assigned to working for two years in alternative service as a result of attaining status as a conscientious objector with the Selective Service and had found a job as a “child care worker” or houseparent at an institution for “emotionally-disturbed” children, called Greer, A Children’s Community, near Millbrook, New York. I was houseparent to ten young boys, ages four to ten, in a “community” consisting of perhaps fifteen home-like buildings housing boys and girls, ages four to eighteen, who were mostly children removed from homes for neglect and abuse but whose families were unwilling to put them up for adoption or into other foster care. Though the institution termed these children as “emotionally-disturbed,” they provided no counseling or mental health care whatsoever, except, of course, for the psychiatrists who prescribed medications to keep the children “obedient” and “stable.” When the boys attained the age of eighteen, they were turned out into the world by being given the choice of joining the US Army or Navy. The children lived on site and also attended a grade school on site, though I am unsure about whether or not there was a high school on site.

          “My kids,” mostly from Harlem, had been removed from homes due to severe drug use and violence by parents, which also included neglect; in once case, their baby brother had starved to death in the same bed with them. Some of the children from other places had parents who had died and either no family to care for them or family that was fighting over custody, in the case of one brother and sister, very well-educated, and used to having servants take care of them. All the children, having had severe trauma in their lives, could fit into a category of being “emotionally-disturbed,” often with violent episodes of PTSD. They sometimes behaved quite viciously as if they were little feral creatures. But they were not “disabled” physically, were verbal and could be “age appropriate” in their social responsiveness and behavior, while also easily be pushed or provoked to aggression, including aggression towards adults.

          The institution had weekly meetings attended by administrator, a social worker, a psychiatrist, the “child care workers” (houseparents), and anyone else they deemed necessary. At this particular meeting, which occurred when I had just begun my job, there was also a school teacher from the on-site school that the children attended. She was fresh out of college (as I was too) and quite inexperienced in teaching children who were to be considered “abnormal” for many reasons, including trauma, death of a parent or sibling, physical abuse, neglect, and absolute lack of formal education. The teacher was white and very soft-spoken—not authoritative whatsoever. I note that she was white because most of these little boys were African-American and had never dealt with a white woman as their teacher. She was in tears because the children were utterly “disobedient, disruptive, and disrespectful.” She couldn’t even get them to sit down, much less listen to anything she had to say. When I started caring for them, I found them to be so distracted and restless that I had to use a much louder voice and also “bribe” them with food they liked to get them to behave and be manageable. I suggested as much to the teacher but she just didn’t feel confident enough to believe it could work. I have to wonder if she was even being paid, and that this was some kind of “apprenticeship” for the acquisition of “teaching credits” on her part.

          Everyone at the meeting, except for me and the other houseparent, at the suggestion of the psychiatrist and administrator, decided that all the children should be “put on Ritalin immediately,” since this would allow the teacher to assert some authority and establish adequate control in the classroom. They said they would “revisit” the medication for the children once they “settled down.” That same night I was provided with the Ritalin and told to give a dose to each child before school the next day. I hadn’t even heart of Ritalin and what it was for, so I thought it might help the situation and gave it to each boy the next morning. When they got home from school that day, they were like little zombies and immediately went to bed and didn’t wake up until I woke them up the next morning. I knew this was bad and that I was not going to give them any more Ritalin. I was expected to give them Ritalin daily. At this point I knew that the boys and I would have to “make a deal” to save them from zombietime.

          The next day was a Friday, a school day. After getting them up, I told them all that I would let them stay up to watch Creature Features on Friday night, would get them pizza, make them ice cream sundaes, give them hot dogs anytime from now on if they would simply keep the secret and behave well in school and be nice to the teacher. “But she’s a honky lady (indicating, I surmise, their dislike of white, young, women social workers from the Department of Social Services),” they complained, to which I said, “Well, if you want Creature Features (which was past their bedtime), pizza, ice cream sundaes, hot dogs, and other good stuff, being nice and obedient to the white teacher isn’t such a big deal, is it?” So we made the deal and I dumped the Ritalin in the toilet—every day for the next almost two years.

          The following week, at the next staff meeting, the young teacher attended, this time with tears of gratefulness, at the “profound expertise” of the psychiatrist and administration, who soundly patted themselves on the back at that meeting, and at every single meeting for the next almost two years. Once or twice, soon after this meeting, I brought up the idea of “revisiting” the continuing necessity for the medication and was told not to “rock the boat,” since “what is working is working.” It was approximately twenty-two months later, as, once again, the psychiatrist and the administrator were crediting themselves for “having done such a fine job” in medicating the children so as to produce such “consistently excellent behavior,” I said, “In truth, the kids immediately attained all that excellent behavior on their own with only a kind suggestion on my part and their overwhelming desire to show respect to their teacher and, of course, to me.” They all stopped congratulating themselves and stared at me in utter silence. “And just what do you mean when you say ‘on their own’?” I said, “After the first day, when they returned home like little zombies, I dumped the Ritalin in the toilet, and they promised me they would behave well, which they have—for the last almost two years. They just decided, as a group, to behave, and knew nothing about the Ritalin they were supposed to be taking.” By the next moment, everyone, except the other houseparent, whose cooperation I had also engaged (but who was not suspect because I took full credit for dumping the med), was in an absolute rage, screaming at me that they would call the police and have me arrested for “endangering the children.” My response: “You’re the ones who endangered the children. Obviously, the results speak for themselves. And I would love to tell this story to the Poughkeepsie News. So go ahead and arrest me.” I was fired immediately and told to leave on the spot. 

There are lots of other stories within this one. I'll share one. The boys had to attend a music class with old Mrs. Parks, who made them sing a song when they got to class, which went like this: "Hello Mrs. Parks, Mrs. Parks, Mrs. Parks. Hello Mrs. Parks, how are you today?" The three older boys refused to sing. It may have been one more racial thing and they may have simply felt humiliated having to sing such a silly "honky" song. And so Mrs. Park's smile cracked and she sent them to the Principal's Office, who then sent them home to me, telling me to "deal with them." When they sang the syrupy sweet song to me, I understood their dilemma, even with the promise they had made to me. So I started thinking about what we might do to alleviate the situation. I had a solution but it had to be their solution and they had to arrive at it. So I suggested that they find way to sing the song perhaps with more "suitable" words. I started singing it very slowly with them. Very slowly, after mentioning that they could use words that rhyme with the words in the song. Very quickly, on their own, they were singing, with big smiles on their faces, "Hello Mrs. Farts, Mrs. Farts, Mrs. Farts. Hello Mrs. Farts. How are you today?" The very next day, I received a call from Mrs. Parks in which she praised the boys and praised me for "talking some sense into their heads." And I noticed that Mrs. Parks was also a little hard of hearing. "Praise Jesus," I thought.

Since we're on the subject, one of my other favorite bumperstickers: BEJESUS LOVES ME!

ON IMPARTING WISDOM

One must refrain from imparting wisdom because such wisdom is always partial rather than whole (or impartial, for that matter). “Part of the truth,” therefore, is not the truth, and is, in this respect, untruthful, though not a falsehood, a lie, which, I would say, require deceitful intention. When I had happened to inquire of the Yijing of what it might have to say, it did say, in so many words, know yourself internally before you express yourself (externally), or, find your inner wisdom before you attempt to express any wisdom to others. It seemed to make the point that, in its opinion (which is that of the universe, after all), I am quite unillumined. I took this in, already instinctively (or even intuitively) having published nothing of my “wisdom” in my blog. I also interpreted myself to be quite Daoistically tuned-in, having already followed the instructions, not even knowing why. And since then, I have been thinking: “One finds one’s place, not by doing nothing, but by trying, making mistakes, and thus further defining oneself.” Knowing this to be utter bullshit, I knew that I wanted to “keep form” by once again doing the wrong thing, since that is “my way” and it just “feels better.” I know “good advice,” and even “true advice,” and have always made the mistake of not following it adequately, which indicates that I at least knew it and yet “took the plunge” anyway: the plunge of “imparting wisdom,” which may be like gas passed as one, having taken the plunge, hurtles towards oncoming oblivion, twisting and turning in the wind.

GODS SEEING THROUGH OUR EYES

As I sat on my redwood perch in the deep Forest of Nisene Marks yesterday, I allowed my head to gently rest on my chest, and closing my eyes, I feel asleep in the absolute silent stillness of the forest, far off any electrical grid, surrounded by sixteen “offspring” of three mother redwood trunks, cut down between 160 and 100 years ago. I don’t remember what I dreamed but as I awoke, before opening my eyes, I realized that we are gods come down to the earth and in these bodies, seeing it all through these eyes, living it all in these bodies and their lives, which we forget are also our divine lives. I opened my eyes then and saw the forest as if I were a newborn babe and it was all absolutely new to me. I deeply inhaled in utter amazement at the beauty of the forest and moved my old, wrinkled hands before my eyes, as if I had never seen them before. They too were amazing to me. I climbed off the great tree trunk and, with my walking “stick,” clambered down the steep twenty-foot path, and then out of the forest to the fire trail and lot where my car was parked. Everything I saw and smelled stayed “new” pretty much until I got to the parking lot maybe twenty minutes. By then I was already thinking that I had to go by either Gayle’s or Dharma’s and get a nice meal for my wife and myself. Pesto pasta from Dharma’s, I decided. I could talk with my old friend, Josh, behind the counter, or exchange a joke with Bernie, the owner, whom I knew, what, 35 years ago, when he started McDharmas, and was sued by McDonalds and had to change the name. Babba Hari Dass, a teacher of Ram Dass, and guru of his ashram at Mt. Madonna, a few miles south of here, had died. Josh told me about his cremation and how he got to place a carnation on the exact spot of Babba’s heart before he was burned up. That’s why I like talking to Josh.

It would be good if we could remember just who we are. Gods, pure beings, are looking out through these eyes of ours. If we could realize this and keep realizing it in our lives, the world would be a much different place. I do not subscribe to religion or to such belief in religious gods, which are presented falsely but perhaps well-meaning clergies, who are nevertheless corporate-minded, bottom line in mind, which is a bit harsh because there are good people and aware people everywhere, including there. One has to trust the sorrow within oneself. We know on some level our plight as human beings. We feel the split between spirit and flesh as though the twain cannot meet, though we know also that it does and must, for here we are in the world of matter as most divine beings of pure spirit. We must learn to live as if all of us, each of us, were worthy of love and kindness. It would seem that trusting others in this kind of existence would be utterly impossible, for people do not even bother to know themselves enough to come even close to trusting or knowing themselves. Instead they allow themselves to be lead like sheep to the slaughter by those who would manipulate them to their own ends. Sometimes there are no reference points for us. Sometimes there is nothing online to explain our thoughts or what we know to us. There is no backup. We have to move forward in our thinking, our own thoughts—divine thoughts, if you will, that arise from some place within us of which we are totally unaware. These thoughts are which ultimately move the world to a better place. And we are thinking them and understanding them even now at this moment. We cannot give up on ourselves, on our ability to know things, to know what to do, to know what is right. Such is our destiny.

TECHNOLOGY, A-I, IMAGES & THE DEVOLUTION OF HUMANITY

The devolution of humanity. We do not necessarily regress into animalism; rather, we “progress” into technology and “artificial intelligence.” We become as machines, even seeing this as a good thing, as progress of the human race—a race we are bound to lose. We focus on, via technology, images, which we share with each other and the world without communicating to each other what it is that we actually see. We see only what we see; no one sees the same thing or even attempts to explain what we see to others. Everyone is particularly imprisoned in their own point of view, their own world. But we have even lost the awareness and self-understanding necessary to articulate our thoughts regarding what we see, how we see, or even how we feel about it. We are no longer aware that we are even meant to communicate our thoughts to others. We see and share an image, believing that we are all in agreement about what it is we are seeing, even though we do not know what others are thinking and feeling about the image we have all seen. We believe we are building a great ziggurat reaching up to God in Heaven, so progressive and artificially intelligenced and robotized, until we realize that the tower is collapsing and crumbling around us; until we realize that we have not been in communication whatsoever regarding any plan or understanding of what we are doing. For we have not only lose our ability to think for ourselves, we have lost our ability to think at all. This is the devolution of humanity who let the machines think for them.

Such are my initial thoughts. I think that the technological focus on image resulting in the loss of communicative skills and even the awareness of the need for communication may be worthy of thought. The devolution of humanity is already known as the Kali Yuga, but now we can see just how the unraveling is occurring. It is no accident that we are now governed, both literally and figuratively, though an increasing level of insanity.